“Never Enough” Might Mean You’re Growing

This post is a little more personal. I don’t often open up like this, but lately I’ve been reflecting on how I got here and how much of my life has been shaped by chasing something I thought I wanted... And frankly, I've been spending a lot of time driving alone back and forth to projects in Miami.

When I look back, I realize that so much of what I’ve pursued has been inspired by what I admired in others. Even in high school, I remember wanting so badly to be friends with the "popular kids." Years later, my friend Lexi and I talked about it; she told me she’d always known how much I wanted it, and that I eventually got there by the time we were halfway through high school.

After that, the same pattern kept repeating.

The "playgrounds" are not what most expect when hearing that term, but rather larger structures with secret passageways, several destinations, and exciting turns along the way.

My first job wasn’t something I set out to do; it was just the first opportunity that came my way... Designing children’s playgrounds. Although a simply small feat on the surface, I admired what the company did and the success they built. But I wasn’t happy there. I remember shortly after I started thinking that I wanted more. I didn’t want what they had. I didn’t know it at the time, but that was the moment I mentally checked out.

From there, I kept moving… new jobs, new locations - always climbing toward the next better thing. It didn't feel right. It's something that society generally frowns upon - job hoping. BUT to anyone starting out, I strongly recommend it. Keep moving up or even laterally until something clicks.

From playgrounds to partner, with a corner window desk and full uninterrupted views of Madison Square Park.

Eventually, when I moved to NYC on a whim (thanks to my friend Kristen, who’s had such a hugely positive impact on my life) I found myself working at a firm designing the lighting in homes for multimillionaires and billionaires. The work was incredible, and it lit me up inside (pun intended). I felt empowered and motivated, and I saw what my boss  (later my business partner) had... And I wanted that.

That drive pushed me forward for years. But eventually, things soured. Somewhere along the way, I realized I didn’t want what my business partner had anymore. What I wanted was something that made me happy.

Leaving that job and that partnership was terrifying. But I’ve never looked back and thought I made the wrong decision. There are still struggles, of course: the financial instability, the inconsistency of projects. But I’m building something that’s mine; something that reflects who I am. And the value of that far outweighs any amount of uncertainty.

"KEEP DREAMING & TRUST YOUR GUT."